Thursday, July 9, 2015

Updates - And The Conversation

Our father passed away in December of 2014 and we have agonized about how to handle this little legacy and project. Sadly, none of us have the savvy to know how to handle this car like he did, as he knew that car so intimately, and had kept it his project for years. We are currently working on presenting it for sale. Meanwhile, I thought it appropriate to share a piece I had written on his blog about the infamous Jaguar XK120 Roadster (seems I have started writing an memoir - book - with stories about life and my father - so this is one of the chapters.) With love Pa, as your birthday approaches...


The Conversation

I woke up yesterday morning curled up into a ball of deep heaving tears. As I sit to write this I realize today marks exactly 6 months since our father was identified as certifiably dead. Not exactly the easiest or best way to put it, but flat out, it isn’t the day he died, it is the day they identified him as dead. However, I didn’t wake up crying because of the anniversary, but rather the last moments of a very active and visceral dream I’d been having with him.  I have not dreamed of my father up until now.
We were traveling around, as if we were doing errands; shopping, collecting things and shoving items into a vehicle we were in. I vaguely remember my mother being along for all this, nagging her Pito about the things we were collecting. I remember struggling to get some things in, and when pulling things out of the back, feeling as if there was no way we could get all that stuff back in there again. Also my father, in a way that felt like a playful joke, had written on the back of my calves while I was driving, a model number and serial number for something. I recall not having my glasses to clearly see the numbers.

We were not “home” but it felt as if we were staying in some transitional space.
My father opens a door to a “bedroom” and says, “I’ve got some things to get down about the cars, then I am going to bed.” I suddenly feel as if this is my only chance so I tell him, “I have something to talk to you about,” and I follow him in. I feel anxious and timid about even approaching what I am there to talk to him about. He sits at a computer running through an application and asks to see my calves. The serial numbers I feel are related to the Jag. As the program runs, a document is created on the screen and there are signatures inscribed on “sign here” lines; the name Julie something is signed, like a Jane Doe sample, on numerous pages. 

I ask, “So this is something we need if we decide we need to sell the Jag?”

Pa turns to me, puzzled, “Why would you need to sell the Jag?”

“Pa, it’s a huge fiscal responsibility!” I can hear my exasperation with him, and he is looking at me with similar sentiment. “How is that even practical? It’s not like I can make it my primary car, Pa!” For a moment, his face changes as he recognizes that this is so powerfully true.

Then a different transition of expression as his face shifts into a soft, almost childlike expression of wonderment, and he looks out the window in front of us to the Jaguar, “That’s what I get for having a toy that beautiful,” he whispers. (And because he whispered this, I am still not sure exactly how he said it, but “I get,” and “beautiful” were there, and I could feel the energy with which it was expressed.)

“And the color, Pa, that you picked for that car is by far my favorite. It IS beautiful!”
Our eyes meet and I can feel all my guilt and fear well up in me about both his most prized possession AND my responsibility for it. I quiver like a child, like his daughter coming for reassurance. “You won’t be mad at me if we decide to sell it?”  I ask as I begin to feel my lip quiver in the vast space he holds. Tears come as he opens his big arms, and I fall into the crick of his shoulder and neck. I can feel his grey whiskers against my neck, and I can smell his Pito smell, and he holds me in a big embrace as I weep against him.

I wake up, crying. I can’t tell which is real for a few moments, so I keep my eyes closed and cry into the dream as best I can, for as long as I can, because I miss him. I’m afraid I will forget his smell, the way his hugs feel, and the warmth of his body when he has held me close.

The 1952 Jaguar XK120 Roadster has been really hard to figure out. None of us kids really want the responsibility of it, it's just too much “car”. So, my heart has ached about letting go of it, while knowing there really isn’t a lot we can do to make it financially easy to keep. Storing it, the mechanics, gasoline, INSURANCE! It's a huge fiscal responsibility. It will sit in a garage again like it had, and that Roadster really wants to be screaming along roads, roaring and showing itself off. Our father knew that car intimately, involved in every aspect of its renovation. Additionally, he has had it since he was 19, purchasing it from his brother who owned it briefly after acquiring it from the original owner. We have a picture of our Great Grandfather sitting in that Jag. I have faint memories of riding with him in that vehicle down the highway in San Diego when I was young. When he got his dream job in New York, the Jaguar was the last thing they carefully packed in the moving van, and the first thing out.

After years degrading in his basement in NY, it was again packaged for its trip to Florida after his retirement, and he started the slow and arduous process of bringing it back to life. Although he never quite shared her name with me, I call it a Jaguarstien, and amalgamation of old and new, and the brainchild of his own hobbyistic “secretly wild-boy” enthusiasm. There have been a few changes to the beast that us kids have cringed at, and one in particular that he never finished (thank god!) after my sneering disapproval (I’d like to think I am responsible for the prevention of foreign headrests). 

Regardless of the purity of his Jag, he joined the Jag club, and I began to attend Jag Rallys, Jag breakfasts, Jag parties, and Jag crawls (though I think they call them “prowls”) because of the length of time getting from point A to point B on any given afternoon among a caravan of enthusiasts. We took pictures of his treasure, and I became part of a tender group of people who were quick to enjoy our father’s humor and playfulness.

The Jag club even made a special award for him, and by the last year or two of his life, he was the active Badge Master, assuring that everyone had their name tags, and brought them to events. He worked to help at every event, and at his “happy hour” celebration, his friends arrived to celebrate him and present an award for being the most involved member (that story has a funny edge to it too!) I am known by the club, and I could never express the depth of gratitude for their arrival during our grief and the loss of our father. Every event was on his calendar (that he kept shared with me, so I also know about appointments, spa day for Gizmo, trash day, target Tuesday, and other regularly scheduled events). 

My favorite thing however, was to ride shotgun with Pa when I would visit. Sure, I attended events and enjoyed the socializing. I loved that I was his date for every January Holiday party with the Jag club. However, he had a sort of zen energy when we took those back road trips, much like we did when I was a teenager. As my hair whipped around my face, and all the grit from the joints and wing vents pelted me on a ride, I would feign the terror of being on a death ride with him. However, inside both of us would be beaming. THIS is one of the ways I could connect with my father. I would joke that I went around with him just so I could be the “eye candy” for all the goats who had to stare at us on the road. He relished that car. 

So I think the conversation with him was really to get him to understand, or for HIM to get ME to understand. Our brains are amazing... that conversation was really so succinct and EXACTLY what I needed. It felt so clearly of him, even when at first I recognized that he didn’t like the idea... then as it made sense he assured me with a big hug that none of his love was wrapped into his feelings for the Jag. The Jag, it was just a vehicle to help us on this plane to connect with each other when he was alive. And this is so important, because NONE of his LOVE is wrapped up in any of the things left behind, but rather in the space in which he holds each of us, and we him, and the ways in which we know each others hearts. His love beats though my blood vessels every moment, and his pride shines from my smile, and his being is all that I am, and more. I honor him when I continue to grow in the world, when I shine my light on others, when I love and live as big and brilliantly as possible. And, that hug, falling into his weight and warmth, just his daughter, just my father, was a reminder that all we have is love.

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Jaguar ECU

Going to start the next big project when I have all the feathers and bones.

So far I have the Emerald K6 ECU and tested it with the provided software.

 While I am in there I will also replace the narrow band HEGO (Heated Exhaust Gas Oxygen) sensors with an Inovate 3844 MTXL wide band air/fuel ratio gauge/logger to have the ECU fine tune the mixture.

Still need:
  • 6 ballast resistors for the low impedance injectors. The ECU requires high impedance.
  • Three way switch and resistor to dynamically switch between ECU maps.
  • Fabricate an extended dash on the transmission tunnel for the AFR gauge, map switch, and idiot lights for low fuel, and radiator fan running.
All it takes is money, time and sweat.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Jaguar dyno run

Took the Jaguar in to my local dyno shop, Excessive Engineering, LLC soon to be renamed to Lugo Motorsports. 2320 Clark St. Suite A11, Apopka, FL.
I Just wanted to get a baseline benchmark before changing the stock ECU (Engine Computer) to an Emerald K6 ECU.

Put on the dynamometer  (rolling road) and did 3 pulls.
  1. Found why limited top speed. Getting starved for air.
  2. Disconnected MAF (Mass Air Flow) sensor.
  3. Replaced 50mm MAF with 75mm MAF.
X axis = RPM x 500       Y axis BHP x 50    dots = FtLb Torque

As seen is this chart, 1st run not so good with a dip in HP between 4000 and 4500 RPM then maxing at 5000 RPM.

Dennis Lugo

Very knowledgeable and helpful. Thanks Dennis.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Jaguar 10 Mile drive


Nice sunny day for a drive down some back country roads near home.

Sunday, March 16, 2014


New tonneau cover.

Had material left over to cover the center console. Had to take the duct tape off first.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Jaguar project headrest fairing

Layers of bondo and primer, file, sand, do it again, slowly getting there.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Jaguar project headrest

Latest project creating a set of cowl headrests. I first made a paper ellipse and used it as a template for making a cardboard mock up to get the dimensions and shape as close as possible.

Initial framework.

Not out of pop-rivets yet.

More frame work.

Number segments so I don't get too confused.

Frame has taken shape.

Paper templates laid out on sheet of aluminium.

Cut lines, numbers and orientation.

Segments pop-riveted to frame.

Some additional storage space here.

Added hinged door and lock.

Had to get more pop-rivets.

Taking on final shape.

What it will look like on the Jaguar.

Large gap to leave room for tonneau cover.

Rear view.

Another angle.

Pink stuff is bondo filler to hide rivets.

On to priming sanding and painting.

 Need to fabricate the passenger side next. Designed to be removable with 3 bolts and clipped into rag top rear hold down spear.